Hickory, Dickory, Dock by Morgan Starr part of the coming out series.
In Hickory, Dickory, Dock, John is fighting the compulsion to come clean and admit to wife Lucy that he is gay. It's a turmoil which is driving him more and more insane. Only John's love for their three children is keeping things together.
An encounter with Ralph, a work colleague, and meeting Sean propels John to the moment of reckoning.