Winner of the Utah Arts Council's Original Writing Competition Book Manuscript Prize in Creative Nonfiction
Winner of the 15 Bytes Book Award for Creative Nonfiction
"This is not a memoir. Rather, this is a fraternal meditation on the question: 'Are we friends, my brother?' The story is uncertain, the characters are in flux, the voices are plural, the photographs are as troubled as the prose. This is not a memoir."
Thus Scott Abbott introduces the reader to his exploration of the life of his brother John, a man who died of AIDS in 1991 at the age of forty. Writing about his brother, he finds he is writing about himself and about the warm-hearted, educated, and homophobic LDS family that forged the core of his identity.
Images and quotations are interwoven with the reflections, as is a critical female voice that questions his assertions and ridicules his rhetoric. The book moves from the starkness of a morgue's autopsy through familial disintegration and adult defiance to a culminating fraternal conversation. This exquisitely written work will challenge notions of resolution and wholeness.