My return to God was a slow and arduous process, with many missteps. I kept trying to coast, to ease back into relationship with Him without making any serious commitments. Then the day before Thanksgiving 2022, I developed a mysterious ailment that took my doctors months to figure out. As it progressed and my back pain worsened, I returned to church walking with a cane. I made the decision to fully return to relationship with God as my body was falling apart, and the cancer diagnosis was confirmed soon after. I began journaling, hoping to leave something of myself for my loved ones, and those efforts became this book.
I am trying to walk with Jesus but after a lifetime of ignoring God I've found I walk with a limp, a spiritual reflection of those faltering first steps back into church. This is the story of my internal journey as I dealt with chemotherapy, read through the Bible for the first time, and wrestled with my demons. I pray that those who read it realize that they are not alone in struggling to heal from old wounds, sort themselves out, and take up their cross to follow Him.