An online diary I kept between 1997 and 1999 when I first moved to Salford. I chatted to lots of other trans people on line, many of who had never been anywhere "dressed" so I invited them to visit and go down Manchester's Gay Village. This tells the story of those trips and others that I made with Vanity Club UK - a TV/TS club. It also tells of my thoughts over that period when I started by identifying as transvestite but began to wonder if I was actually transsexual and if I would eventually need to transition permanentlyThere are descriptions of how I came out as trans to two of my oldest friends, at work and to my family - and the consequences of those stepsThree stories that I wrote at the time for Northern Concord's magazine "Crosstalk" under the name Helen WilliamsonA poem "Can You Tell Me What I Am?" which was written when I was questioning if I was TV or TSAnd a number of other humorous anecdotes from the period.